Exercising - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not consider within participation of exercising/am exercise schedule, whether I'm pushing too hard to the point of accumulating a disfunction all bone structure/muscle structure, and even internal organs.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to do this due to the fear of getting out of shape, or becoming unhealthy, or losing a judgment I have towards my body.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to therefor create the value of images, over the real value of what my physical body needs to stay stable, whether in conditions of vigorous exercise, or vis versa.
I commit myself to observe my body/back (spine) to see if I will be capable of participating in the next exercise, within this I therefor commit myself to follow the best diet, where I can stay healthy regardless If I can participate or not. I commit myself to go see a cyropractor for what would be the best option to help my back.
I commit myself to redefine my relationship with physical activity, which best suits my physical body practically, and thus I commit myself t stop the abuse from the excessive work, just to fulfill an illusion/characterized definition of healthy.
I commited myself to start studying health, to recreate the vocabulary which is in relation to my physicl body, and thus I commit myself to eliminate all self interest patterns which iuse to verify my misconstrued interpretation of being healthy.
When I find myself in a hurry to protect this false image that I've related towards health, I slow down my participation, breath with the movements, and primarily focus on how my body feels, in relationship to the work out. If I physically am comfortable to continue, I will en investigate how my body relates to the movements. If I'm not comfortable, I will firstly breath, and that its most practical for my body, and afterwards, take care of my body with food and water, etc, and then, study what's best for the focused area that I found uncomfortable.
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Playing guitar - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have fun playing guitar, but then e memorie of when I've been told that I sucked at something domes up, and then relate the judgment towards my playing.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself t then go into comparing myself to other musicians, and where I will create this bias towards their music, as '"too repetitive, too cliche, etc." while enjoying their music too a great majority, but simply comparing myself to suppress my inability t work to their ability. Thus within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, to catagorize sound, simply because I've been tod and presented judgment about expressing myself, as if I should just basically be punished for it.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myselfto catagorize 'sophisticated' material, simply because it is sophisticated in relation to my current ability.
I commited myself to redefine my playing as that moment of expression/ability, which is neither a bad or good judgment, for the fact that its already effective due to my physical participation with the music.
I commited myself to understand that when I'm listening to another musician, that I am hearing what they are expressing physically here, and thus I commit myselfto relate my redefined point of playing music, in relation to when I'm hearing another artist, and not as this nonsense energetic experience f polarity to cover up my own fear of expressing myself with music.
I commited myself to not judge my ability, or cmpare this inferior character to better material in relation to my ability, thus Pete as well, but notepad use that as an example to work off of to build myself as a living expression, s that others can equally translate my example to themselves.
When I find myself in fear of expressing myself, due to judgement coming up n reaction to playing guitar/music, or when listening t music, I breath untill I can be more clear of what's here without the various thoughts/reactions that only accumulate the judgment, and I enjoy the music, and eventually come to a point of utilizing that thought which created the limitation of true enjoyment, and not some convenient suppressor for my own accepted and allowed insecurity.
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