Day 4 - playing guitar

During session - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I've accepted and allowed myself to be defined as a mother expression when playing music.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to therefor percieve what I'm working with when playing guitar, as bigger than me, like being told that how I'm expressing myself is good or bad - according to my mother.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to thus create self interest within playing guitar as a way of verifying the convenient expressions my mother, and feeling discouraged with the inconvenient expressions/my mother.

I'm commited to take a break once every guitar session, to write out the relationship between my self and what I'm working wi, for 1 week, and then the next week, practice stating self forgiveness out loud to be as effective as to writting.

I'm commited to redefine my expression when in relation to my mother.

I'm commited to redirect myself wi breath wi what I'm working wi and observe myself physically equal to what I'm working with, and thus I'm commited to write the point out on my break, whatever it is in relation to my mother in that moment, or to something else.

I'm commited to redefine my perception of guitar/music/playing music, as a practical form of expression, and his I'm commited to write 1 memory within each point I write about.

when I find myself lost in my mind relationship to an abstract belief about playing music,, I breath, and follow the previous commitments.

After - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to make the excuse, not to push through and state out loud self forgiveness/self corrective statements.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myselfto become in fear of losing my ego relationship with playing guitar/music, and thus I forgive myself at I've accepted and allowed myself to becoming apathetic further in my session and bored, and just wanting to 'get it over with'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself t have his sort of depressive reaction within confronting e usual pattern of love and light I usually generate when playing guitar, which in fact has made me much less effective within playing guitar to begin with

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to play guitar, to have this sort of competition with others, from when I wanted to beat one of my friends, in a junior high talent show, and thus i forgive myself that I've accepted and loosed myself to pick up guitar in the first place, from wanting to best another person in music, thus I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be resistant in transcending from the love and light feelings I've created in my mind when playing guitar.

I'm commited to state self forgiveness once a sessionto practice stabilizing myself firstly when in physical participation with music, and to also ensure that I reach all aspects of my dishonesty within playing guitar/music.

I'm commited to breath and focus with whatif doing when playing guitar and not further accumulate patterns of self blame of trying to hold on to the love and light relationships, us within this, I'm commited t simply start wi self forgiveness statements, and apply those specific corrections when I fall into mind patterns.

I'm commitedt stop playing and move my arms and touch the guitar, to observe the depiction between what's relavent within physical functionality, and what's irrelavent when trying to further suppress with love and light. I'm commited however to continue practicing following my self corrective statements to where I deminish the tendency to go into supression, and therefor actually stand more effectively as life/what's best for all life, and not as a tempted mind robot.