Day 1 - cleaning house, playing guitar

Cleaning house:I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to relate cleaning my house, as something I could be potentially punished for participating in.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to thus go into supression through fantasizing, as a scape goat from working with what's HERE when cleaning my house.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear what will happen if I actually start participating here physically, and facing the points through breath, instead of through suppression with fantasies of accomplishment. Thus within this I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow love and light, instead of practicing breathing to utilize myself within e points of fear.

I'm commited to redefine my relationship with cleaning my house throu breathing through one of the points I percieve as punishment every time I write about this specific relationship.

I'm commited t stop myself within fantasizing through slowing down and breathing through the point, until I'm here, and self forgive the fantasy/suppressive point, and continue practicing breathing.

I'm commited to continue utilizing myself through these practices, to face the fears, instead of hiding through them and falling through love and light.

When I find myself in a moment of fear of punishment, and then escape into fantasies/suppression, I breath, I slow don my outs, and I come back HERE, and focus only actual relationship in real time.

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Playing guitar:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to play guitar, in this sense of trying to make profit, wher wi will fantasize about others watching me play, not realizing that I am only creating this as a void of actually participating in physical relationship with e guitar/music

I forgive myself thative accepted and allowed myself to thus define music that I'm playing/practicing, as boring, simply because I'm not gaining money or profit within actual real relationship to the music.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to rush myself within the desires, and create fear thus from losing these fantasies, thus I thin this I forgive myself that I currently accepted and allowed myself to want to rush through my writting, to go and continue mind participation.

I'm commited to redefine my relationship to music, and play music through investigating equal money, and how I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in physical expression within music, as instead a scapegoat for suppressing the very fear of actual real time expression.

I'm commited to thus redefine my participation skin music as a point of creating feelings and expectations and convenience as a motive to continue playing/practicing.

I'm commited o slow myself down with breath, and take this one point at a time, with the very point I'm focusing in.

When I find myself in fantasy of relationship to profit, I breath, and find myself within e relationship as equal expression to music in real time.